It took 5 months of contemplation. And it was not always foremost on my mind. But when it was, it was on the top of my list of thoughts. I realized that my thinking was indecisive at best. Thinking, researching, looking at the pros and cons. And then putting it out of my mind for another day. Some days, I focused on “Is my body up for the challenge?”, and other days I considered other marathon options throughout the country. For awhile, I considered running Philadelphia, and then my thoughts turned to my last 2 memories of running the NYC marathon in 1985 and 1999. I thought about the crowds on First Avenue after crossing the 59th Street Bridge. I thought about waiting for hours at Fort Wadsworth in Staten Island for the event to begin. I thought about how ‘fascinating’ that the start was at Fort Wadsworth, and my name being “Wadsworth”. As if the universe was calling to me. Sometimes it felt as if a statue called the NYC Marathon was sitting on a table in my kitchen, and I looked at this statue every day, from a different angle. The only problem, was that I wasn’t getting any further in making a decision. Some days the idea seemed right, and other days not so much. And I certainly wasn’t ready to start the regimen of marathon training. Perhaps I would be stuck in this contemplative state for awhile?
And then, my running partner & confidante made an astute observation.
“It’s been festering in you for a while hasn’t it? Like an itch you can’t stop itching. What do you need to move forward?”
She was right, it was an itch. An itch I couldn’t ignore. I knew there was no other marathon that I wanted to finish. The only marathon I wanted to run – is NY. It wasn’t until I heard her words, that I realized how much I did not want to disrupt the special relationship I have with family and friends. This, apparently was holding me back. As we explored what my training program would look like for the next 6 months — I discovered that my friends and family were STILL very much a part of my everyday adventures. Nothing, (other than some extra miles of running training) would change any of that.
With a new brightness in my “move it forward” green light, I inched my way closer to making a decision. I reached out to my favorite fundraising organization – Ulman Cancer Fund – Team Fight – and continued to collect more information on the fundraising aspect. The fundraising could be daunting – especially considering I was working full time and going to school part time. Now I’m considering adding a marathon and fundraising efforts on top of that! I would not know for certain how it would all fit together, but somehow – like everything else — it will eventually fall in to place. With the support of friends and family, and not knowing every detail in advance, I signed up to run the NYC Marathon – which is held on November 2, 2014. With the Ulman Cancer Fund as my partner – I committed to helping cancer survivors reclaim their bodies in the Cancer 2 5K program – through sports. This adventure will be an honor. Let the ‘games’ begin!
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